realize

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love,beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

---Extract from If You forget Me by Pablo Neruda

sneak peek

Here's my interim report.

First of all, wow, thank you everyone so much for continually checking me out despite my current absence. How sweet! I'm still not officially back yet, but I'll try to keep you posted when time allows and also when I desperately felt a need for a sense of creativity in life.

Also thanks for those who have been sending me a word of care and encouragement. You truly are all amazing souls, and I am so lucky to be always surrounded by such fantastic supporters. I am so blessed.

o.k. let me just give you a quick glimpse of what has been going on in my life.

My future is still not confirmed yet, and I'm still getting myself off to potential future employers or career conventions every week. Nonetheless, I'm more or less feeling determined this time and beginning to see a shaft of hope which I didn't see last time. Indeed I've just received an approval for the interview from the company I've visited last week in Tokyo;).

University life has been giving it an additional hecticness, but my favorite IR and Spanish classes are keeping me awake. Several new encounters with internationals are spicing it up even more.

And my heart pulses with something:)

Wonderful weekend readers!

bring on

" You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something---your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever."

"When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like:"If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something."

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma---which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

Steve Jobs, Speech at Stanford 2005